God is the best Comforter
Happy Monday!! I took a week off from my blog and social media in general pretty much, last week due to travelling, and moving, and a ton of craziness all happening at once! I am so thankful for the time I was able to spend with all of my amazing friends in Florida, and for my car only breaking down once on the drive back to Colorado. I am still adjusting to life back in Colorado and only have two more boxes to unpack before I am officially a Colorado girl again!
I have had a lot of change and transition, and a lot of hard feelings towards God’s plan for me… I know that sounds really wrong to say, and it feels wrong saying it, but it’s honestly the truth. I knew what I was doing, I knew what my life would look like based on my decision to move to institute in Idaho. I was that typical girl that assumed God’s plan was for me to go to institute, serve in the church there, and meet a man that wants to serve the Lord with his life that I would then marry and be a home keeper. But that isn’t what happened, and the more I pushed for it, the more it only hurt me and made my relationship with God weak and not my top priority.
Now, after making this tough decision it has put me in this place that feels like isolation. I was talking to one of my friend’s in Florida on this, and he said something that stuck out to me “Maybe the Lord is trying to isolate you in this transition period to grow closer to Him and not others.” Literally so true! I am so thankful for my family that I am surrounded with and get to spend time with, but at night when thoughts start going and I question decisions I have made, and question what the Lord is doing in my life at this point, it is so hard to shut my head off. It’s caused me to not rely on others for comfort, but to lean on the Lord when those thoughts and feelings come in. Isolation requires me to need the close relationship with God!
Prayer has become the hugest comfort in those moments of loneliness, it’s like this feeling of the Lord covering me when I feel vulnerable and unsure. “ Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; 4) who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.” “Wait on the LORD: Be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.”
Going into another new chapter, the one thing that will help me is remembering all the amazing promises that God has given those who are trying their best to serve Him and follow His will for their lives!
Sincerely,
Bella <3
