A bet with my dad!

HI!

I hope Monday is treating you right! It has been quite a few hectic weeks. Guys, I am literally 4 days til my music major audition which will determine the course of my life, but no pressure!! I have also decided on a minor in Public Relations, and there’s a reason why I chose this minor but I will get to that later on. I have a huge surprise for my parents that I am bringing home after work today as well, but I will disclose that later on as well! Stay tuned… also follow my insta @bella_slifestyleblog to get more updates.

Ok, so onto why I used this title: this past week was a headache, I literally cried in front of my manager, she gave me a poppi and I kept working so we’re good! But seriously, I felt like I was in a fog and eventually broke down crying confused on why this constant mood was controlling how I was doing at work, with my family, with my friends that I decided not to respond to, with not calling to catch up with people and instead sitting in my car stewing over what went wrong in my day. Was there anything actually wrong? I wish I could say there was, it would be so so much easier to blame it on my circumstances, but my circumstances are still pretty great. So yah, it was honestly just last weekend that I was dealing with this Eeyore cloud but it’s gone now!!

The next morning though, (Monday morning) my dad saw me taking a picture of something, of course to post it! It’s like he knows me 🤯. He also decided to test me! “Hey Bella, want to make an easy $100?” As if I’d say no! “Give up social media for a week.” Just a week, sounds super easy! I have done it before, I used to do it all the time so this would be easy moneyyy! Ok so like in five minutes later I tried to hit instagram where it was on my home page and instead I had it deleted and it took me a step back. This literally continued on my drive to work, at work, even at church.

I kept being so shocked at myself when I would subconsciencly go to instagram or tik tok without even thinking about it! Let’s just say this bet was more eye-opening if anything. Now, am I saying I am completely getting rid of all social media, and down with the Metaverse, not necessarily! I am just saying that this week taught me the reality of being responsible with my time, and how much better I could manage and get more things done.

I noticed, I was more focused at work and not thinking about things that weren’t relevant to my day. I felt like I had all this time out of nowhere just by the fact that I wasn’t spending two minutes here and there in my day, and just solely focused on what was right in front of me. It was liberating to feel in control with my time management, and more conscience in planning my day.

I also saw how I wasn’t having as many doubts in myself, I wasn’t comparing myself to anything or anyone and just living my life. There are so many good things about social media, like staying connected to your friends who live on the other half of the world. But when you get so stuck on the negative outlook like I was, taking a step back is exactly what is needed. Taking a step back helped me see where I was wrong in my perspective and get my eyes back on how the Lord sees me, and how He is shaping my life and seeing someone else shouldn’t make me question what the Lord is doing in my life.

With all that said, I won the bet! I already have the freedom to be on social media and now it’s not as appealing to doom scroll like I was doing two weeks ago! I love being able to help others with social media, I love that I have made such amazing friends through it, I love that I can reach friends that I haven’t seen in years and we are still connected. It’s great when I use it for the right reasons! If you are struggling with this spiral of comparison, and frustration through social media, or maybe it’s something else that is having that effect on you, take a step back, cut it out for as long as you need to help you stay focused on the Lord and yourself!

“And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
-Philippians 4:7

Sincerely,
Bella <3