Bitterness in the Way of Blessing!
Hiii!
Happy Saturday!! I hope you lovely human beings are having a great start to your week! First off, LIFE UPDATE: I was so stressed this weekend. And the crazy thing is it was all great stuff but just overwhelmed with it all! First, I had a very extensive interview with ASRevival, a Christian workout clothing store, for a weekend position. I was so nervous and the questions she asked were so deep that it took me a lot of stressful thinking. The most encouraging part of that interview was the fact that she said how much she could tell I was strong about my faith and about Jesus. I know you guys are dying to know if I got the position, and I did!! This girl is full time and part time now <3. Besides that, I have been studying really hard for my ACT test which is only 2 weeks away :0. Also practicing audition pieces for CCU! Yah, it’s been pretty hectic, but good hectic!
Want to jump in today because let me just say the Lord has been showing me so much in all of this, and even in the unanswered prayers right now. As many of you know based off of my previous blog, I made a prayer board a few weeks ago. When you are building it and seeing it, and it’s reminding you to pray it is so encouraging right?! I actually felt the most discouraged this week when I looked at it, because I looked at the answered prayer envelope, seeing that it is still empty. I had a very hard moment yesterday with this…
I have been asking God to answer so many things not just for me and my personal gain, but for others, and when the prayers or dreams seem to slowly fade and go the opposite way, I am left questioning why even try. I am currently reading a devotional book that has helped me see things a lot differently then what my flesh leans into doing. In My Lowest for His Highest, Katherine Shultis says “ Satan’s goal is to make you bitter and make you forget the hope you have in Christ. Because if he can make you bitter, he can keep you from the blessing God has for you and the blessing you could be to others.” That was so so needed, with this feeling of shut doors, and frustrations there is a whole plan that I am not seeing, a whole life ahead that I can’t control the outcome but giving control to the Author and Creator makes that fear and frustration go away!
If you are going through an unanswered prayer, or a full on shut door, PRAY even harder! Allow yourself to cry but cry to God, I realized even though I am so thankful for the support system that I have with my friends, after crying to them doesn’t make me walk away feeling the void actually filled compared to taking it to God. There’s this overwhelming peace that just really takes that burden away. And maybe it will take it away for a day, then you wake up hoping to see a text from someone and when it’s not there you feel sad again, take it to God. He doesn’t get tired of us coming with the same issue. Even though He came to Lazarus’ grave knowing he was going to raise him from the dead, He weaped with Mary and Martha, because He sees your hurt and has open arms ready to mourn with you and to help you get through it!
If you are at all struggling, even if it’s just one bad day! Seriously, DM me! Reach out! Send me an email, I am here to “mourn with them that mourn, and rejoice with them that do rejoice.” God gave us each other in bad days, and good days to be there for each other! I hope this was a blessing to you! Praying for everyone who reads this! ☀️
Make today a great day!
Sincerely,
Bella 🤍
